So I’m sitting here looking at the Carrowinds website for a work related issue and I see that season tickets are on sale and I instantly get excited.

One of my major goals for weightloss surgery is to be able to ride roller coasters again- something I haven’t been able to do since 1998- and even then, there were some that my butt wouldn’t fit in. So here I am, down 40lbs and wondering if it’s worth it to spend the $150.00 for something I may or may not be able to use. In 1999, I weighed about 250, MAYBE 240…maybe. I’m at 280 right now. Do we think I can get down to at least 240 before the beginning of summer? It seems feasible, but…ugh! I asked Brett what he thought and he seems to think that he won’t be able to lose enough between now and then- so he’s hesitant. Is it wrong of me to want to be completely selfish and say, I’m GOING!? God I want to go SO bad! I want my heart in my throat for at least six hours in one day, several times this year! Tell me that doesn’t sound most awesome? I told him that even if we aren’t able to do all the rides this year, there will be some that won’t be a problem and others that may start as a problem but by the end of summer will be no problem at all. He wasn’t completely convinced– I’m going to have to work on that. I REALLY, REALLY, REALLY want a season pass! Like REALLY!!!

This brings me to “other news”. These last few weeks have been jam packed and super great! It’s truly amazing how much better I feel. Not just physically but mentally too. I’m able to focus better, accomplish more and think more clearly. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not cured of my ADD- far from it, but I do feel a lot more in control. I feel certain that having little to no simple carbs (and even less wheat) in my diet has made a HUGE difference. I’m also certain that my hormones are leveling out a bit too. I am able to sit down at my desk and actually get a lot of work done at one time rather than spending my day trying to figure out what to do. My job is getting better and I’m finally looking forward to the next day. (I really didn’t realize just how depressed I’d become.) This lack of depression is really astounding.

I have been going non-stop for a couple of weeks now. Just yesterday I worked, went to the gym, came home, cooked dinner, ate, watched some TV and then went to the grocery store. The gym and store are two things I wouldn’t have done two months ago. The store, eventually, when I finally got around to it, but the gym…eh, highly unlikely– especially not two days in a row! (I am taking the day off today though)

Tonight I’m going to a meeting for a club we joined a couple months ago, tomorrow I’m going to see a play, I’ll be spending Saturday at Costco, Saturday night at a piano bar, Sunday cleaning my house, Monday having coffee with a friend (hopefully), Tuesday and Wednesday preparing for our beach trip on Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday and Monday! I can’t say it enough…I feel like a REAL person with a REAL life!

Even more exciting? For the FIRST TIME IN MY ENTIRE LIFE I have to get rid of clothes because they’re TOO BIG! WHAT?!?!?!?! Yes! That’s just insane! I’m not in need of new clothes yet, which is fine by my wallet, but there are definitely some pants that just look ridiculous on me now. Woo hoo!

Eating is going well. Maybe a little too well. I thought that my decisions would be made for me for at least the first six months, but it turns out there’s nothing I can’t eat. Seriously. I have had NO problems with anything I’ve tried, even dessert. (two bites, that’s all) So it’s up to me to make the right choices. I’m okay with that- the bypass is still my tool and I’m not feeling deprived at all. I’m CHOOSING to eat mostly protein and vegetables and I don’t feel like I’m a slave to carbs. The best part is that when I’m at my goal weight (whatever that may be) I’ll know that I earned every ounce of pride I’ll have for making the choice to get healthy and fit. So that’s that.