Even though I have lost 164lbs and I am at my doctor’s goal weight…
Even though I have been doing crossfit 4-5 days a week for almost 2 years and eat a very clean diet (90% of the time)…
Even though I am a certified personal trainer and a Spartan, a Rugged Maniac, a Warrior and a Triathlete…
This is what my body looks like (almost) naked
Because of this I try very hard to stay focused on fitness goals as my measure of success rather than my appearance, or the number on the scale, or the size of my jeans, but sometimes, just sometimes, I forget…
I am extremely passionate about sharing my story and the lessons I’ve learned in hopes of inspiring others to live their own I’mperfect Life!
MAY 16, 2014
A few weeks ago I did just that…I forgot. I was faced with a “Look Good Naked Challenge” at my gym that I knew I had no chance in hell of winning. I remembered that summer was just around the corner and realized that I would go a 25th year wearing shorts over my bathing suit to hide the legs I’ve hated since I was 11. I tried on a jean skirt that I wanted so bad only to see my misshapen knees that have kept me from wearing anything above them throughout all of my adult years, and out of nowhere it hit me like a ton of bricks…I felt frustrated, discouraged and sad. Like really, really sad. I even cried a little. I felt like all the hard work that I’d been doing wasn’t paying off and it made me want to give up.
I spent a good week or so feeling sorry for myself, getting caught up in the vanity of it all. I didn’t work as hard at the gym, I didn’t eat as well as I usually do and every time I looked in the mirror I felt worse than I had the time before.
I can’t recall if there was something specific that got me to pull my head out of my ass, but fortunately something did. (could have just been the end of my period…fricken hormones!) Regardless of what it was, I decided that it was time to REALLY celebrate what my ugly body CAN DO rather than focus on what it looks like…or doesn’t look like. So I asked my friend Emily, the amazing photographer, to take some pictures of me DOING the THINGS I have NEVER, EVER…EVER in my entire life…not even as a kid (with the exception of the cartwheel) have been able to do until now.
So here you go! Today I am celebrating what my body is capable of doing because of the lifestyle changes that I’ve made and the hard work I’ve done in and out of the gym.
I am PROUD of my ugly body because...
THIS BACK AND THOSE ARMS
ARE STRONG ENOUGH TO DO THIS (no strings attached!)
THIS BACKSIDE
CAN DO A CARTWHEEL A GRACEFUL AS ANY (NOVICE) GYMNAST
THESE SADDLEBAGS, STRETCH MARKS AND CELLULITE
CAN’T STOP ME FROM BEING SUPER FLEXIBLE
THAT LOOSE UNDERARM SKIN
DOESN’T MEAN I CAN’T CLIMB THIS THING
THE REMAINING FAT ALL OVER MY BODY
DOESN’T MEAN I’M NOT STRONG ENOUGH TO FLIP A FLIPPIN TIRE
MY FLABBY TUMMY
HAS THE CORE STRENGTH THAT ALLOWS ME TO ACT LIKE KID
THESE PUDGY LEGS
PROVIDE ME WITH ENOUGH STRENGTH AND STABILITY TO DO A ONE LEGGED SQUAT (with great amounts of concentration!)
AND THIS…ALL OF THIS
WOULDN’T KEEP ME FROM LOOKING STRONG AND SEXY…
IF I LIVED ON THE MOON
Besides, I still look cute in a pair of jeans…
AND I’M…
BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY
NO MATTER HOW UNCOMFORTABLE I AM DISPLAYING MY BODY DURING THE SUMMER MONTHS…
I NEVER, EVER WANT TO BE AS UNCOMFORTABLE AS I WAS IN THIS BODY 365 DAYS A YEAR
PS: This post was originally written in May of 2014. Since then I have been pregnant three times and have given birth to two baby boys! (4/2016 and 1/2018)
There's no such thing as before and after, only then and now, but I still love my ugly body, and I'm on a mission to help other women love their's too!
CLICK HERE to read the latest in my “Ugly Body Evolution”!
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Ja mijn ogen zijn ook open bedankt top wijk ben je
Hi there, you are so beautiful and such an inspiration – but stop referring to your body as “ugly” it is not ugly, because your beauty and self love shines through.
Amazing how fit you are as well !
Love from Kildare in Ireland.
Elaine.
I hear this a lot, and I believe it’s important to explain that: My body is my body. I don’t actually refer to it as anything aesthetic in “real life”– but I will not stop calling it ugly in reference to this post because I know that the reason this article has reached millions of people all over the world is because of the word, “ugly”. Whether it’s curiosity or because others can relate, they click. Would you have click on this article if the title was 10+ reasons I love my body? I am more than my body. I am beautiful and full of love and joy, and none of those things have anything to do with my body. Ya know?
Yes !!!!! Your body is beautiful !!! Stop calling it the “U” word. You look amazing and you are amazing . Thank you for sharing —- you are incredibly inspiring !!
thank you for the encouragement for us to redirect our focus and be positive.
You have made some amazing accomplishments!
Thank you for your risk in being real!
Thank you!
Thank you!!! I have a similar body, how important is to” love our body “. God bless you. ( sorry for my poor english)
It’s so important! We only get one! And it is our only vessel for life. <3
I am just starting this process for real. I turning 60 on Tuesday coming, and I have never lost my baby weight. I had four boys. My baby is 28 on the 29th. I’ve been 100 pounds overweight for 30 years.
I cannot imagine how saggy my skin will be. Im seeing wrinkles in my face more and more as I lose…I’m going to keep on going. This has inspired me. Thank you
I just read your post. Its a great message, when I was growing uo’ thats the sort if messaging that progressives made to woman(it would have veen nice if they were made to men too), but today, messagws that ate suppisedly from people with rhe vest in mind aeem obsessed with beauty and entitlement. Icwish there were a lot more messages like yours. I hope my daughter stumbles over this
I just read your post. Its a great message, when I was growing uo’ thats the sort if messaging that progressives made to woman(it would have veen nice if they were made to men too), but today, messagws that ate suppisedly from people with rhe vest in mind aeem obsessed with beauty and entitlement. Icwish there were a lot more messages like yours. I hope my daughter stumbles over this
Thank you. You can copy and paste the link and send it to her. <3